Tifa

Because Owen Did It

A year in review.


1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Came out! That kinda sucked. Had sex. That was kinda fun! ;P

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I did! For about a month. I got a 6 pack only to realize if I lifted my tits, I would have noticed I had a baby 8 pack! BOOYA!! Then I lost it after 3 months…..

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My sister.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
My family is old. People die all the time.

5. What countries did you visit?

None.

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
Faith in myself and my abilities.

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Not a day, but the week my mom didn’t sleep because I told her I was gay. Not fun.

Omg!!! THE NIGHT I GOT INTO A POLICE RAID!!!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Coming out to my friends.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Failing all my classes and MOVING BACK HOME!

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I’m pretty sure I had a mental breakdown….

11. What was the best thing you bought?
MY CAR!!!! Oh Cheryl…

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My youngest brother surprisingly. He’s the only person in my family to support me.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My Mom, Dad, Sister, and Eldest Brother.

14. Where did most of your money go?
MY CAR! Damn u Cheryl…..

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
All the traveling I did. I drove all over this year!

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
I love Your Girl by The Dream

17. Compared to this time last year, you are:
i. happier or sadder? Sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner.
iii. richer or poorer? SO much poorer….

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Talked. I didn’t talk to anyone about what I was going through really.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Slept.

20. How will you be spending New Years?

I SPENT IT ON THE DANCE FLOOR!

21. What was the most embarrassing thing that happened to you in 2008?
Telling my mother I failed.

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
HaHa! A couple of times!

23. How many one-night stands?
One. And another one that lasted for 2 months. Lol!

24. What was your favorite TV program?
L Word.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don’t hate anyone. Even that chick that tried to beat me up on new years…..


26. What was the best book you read?
Why don’t I read?!

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
An Horse. AN FRIGGIN HORSE!!!

28. What did you want and get?
My heart broken.


29. What did you want and not get?
A pony.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Wall-E and the Dark Knight. Everything else was just ok.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 21. And I really don’t remember the party. I was told I had a blast though….

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
My parents accepting me.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Omg….Suits and sweats. That’s all I wore.

34. What kept you sane?
Nothing. I went nuts.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
None. I was TOTALLY focused on me.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Sarah Palin. All by herself.

37. Who did you miss?
MOLLY!!!! Never realized how much she kept me sane.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Sara. Love her.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
My world fell apart. Totally fell apart. Everything I thought I knew turned out to be wrong. The past 5 years of my life looked like a lie. My values changed. My life goals changed. My familial relationships have been ripped to shreds. But the worst bit was that I lost faith in myself and lost who I was. I will never do that again. I am THE MOST important thing in my life. I have to cater to myself first and others later.  

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
This is a song for the one that I love.

I haven’t met them yet, but I’m quietly confident.

Oh, what if like you said,

What I’m looking for, doesn’t exist

Oh, I have to believe it does... Cuz

It’s ok to fall down.

It’s Ok to crumble.

An Horse - Camp Out


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School starts this Monday. I'm soooo friggin happy! It feels like my first day of college all over again.

After temporarily losing my mind and attempting to drop out of school, I see the world very differently. I realize I need that stupid piece of paper. I also realize how dumb I was to attempt to stop w/ only 30 credits left to go. Granted, they're useless credits. I've already finished all my General Education requirements as well as all but 2 classes needed for my major. Unfortunately, those 2 classes aren't being offered this semester so I'm forced to take a bunch of useless classes to get to 120 credits. College is such a scam.

I've learned everything my college has told me to learn. But the university still wants another 10 grand from me before I can get that stupid piece of paper. No, stop, let's be positive. I'm taking classes I'm actually interested it. Photography, Film Production Techniques, Roman History, and Sex! lol. That last class doesn't have a name yet. It's a small class of about 15 people that focuses on sexual identity in America. My friend and I are taking it and have been calling it the sex class. And since we both as mature as a couple of 5th graders, we giggle whenever we reference it.

It's gonna be ok. I'm going to finish out these last few courses. I'm going to graduate. I'm going to get a job. I'm going to save some cash. Then, I'm moving out of Michigan. That's the plan. I love how the older I get, the less complicated the plans get.  2 years ago, I would have needed to sketch those 5 sentences over 5 sheets of paper. *sniff* It's like The Wonder Years. I'm growing up!
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YES!!! There was a heat wave! The snow's melting!!!!!.......after I already shoveled my driveway twice this morning from all the damn snow. Son of a bitch.....
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I finally got my hat, but it doesn't fit

It's been awhile so updates in 100 words....

Had a minor breakdown and quit school. Had another breakdown living w/ my parents. Signed back up for school. Got a new job! I work at Potbellies. It's a sub shop, but they won't teach me how to make subs. Today I burnt my hand on some soup. Ugh....I finally got a hat to go w/ my uniform. My hairs still too short to put in a ponytail and I felt naked. So, I GOT THE HAT TODAY!!! YAAAAAY!!!! It's too small.....SON OF A B--!!!!

So that's the most of it. I've moved back in w/ my parents and they've taken me hostage. It's my own fault. Damn depression. Mom says she won't pay for school if I don't live there. Something about proving I can handle the responsibility. I understand where they're coming from. They're trying to protect their investment. At the same time though I haven't had anyone telling me what to do in 3 years. I'm going nuts. They actually ask me who and where I'm going. What time will I be home. It's soooooo strange!!! And I have chores....wtf! AND I CAN'T MOVE OUT!!! And I can afford to move out!!!! It's so terrible.....I'm stuck like this for 10 months until I graduate from school. Oh dear god. I may do myself harm before then. They'll be a report on the news. 21 year old college students kills herself via mop. Eye witnesses say she walked out into the front yard and proceeded to beat herself to death with a mop stick. Neighbors and friends say they never saw it coming. She was always a sweet and charismatic girl......
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Ugh....

I edit weddings all week and shoot them all weekend. I never really liked weddings, but now I absolutly abhor them. Except when something's really cute. Or...when someone's REALLY drunk. Like last week, I edited this one vid where the people were absolutly amazing. The bridal party started drinking around 2pm. By 11pm they were LIT!!! We do dedications/interviews...the brides sister was out of control! At one point, someone even had a baby on camera using it like a ventriliquist dummy! Good times.

What really bothers me about all these weddings is that everyone is soooo young! Only a few years older than me (I'm 21). It just really freaks me out. To be getting married at 24-26, a person needs to be thinking about these things now at my age......Eww. I mean, I've never wanted to get married. I think of it as something I'm REALLY going to fuck up. I respect marraiage. Watching my parents and my sister, I realize it takes a lot of work and compromise and this giving up of yourself to create a stronger union. I just can't do that. I don't EVER see myself being able to do that. I know that blows, but that's how I feel. But now I feel like I'm missing the memo or something. This girl from my high school who I really respect just married her high school sweetheart yesterday. They've been together for  7 years. She's only 3 years older than me. My other good friend is already thinking about how her boyfriends sperm count.....I can't friggin deal. A part of me feels like I'm going to miss something HUGE because I don't want this. Not to say I don't want to spend my life with someone. I just don't want to latched down by laws, God, and ethical/moral responsibilities. That's just WAAAAY too much pressure for me. At the same time, I feel as though if I don't acept this, I'm going to end up alone. Mad crazy successful w/ a speed boat and a summer home. But alone none the less.
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OMFG

Sara Palin scares the shit out of me! I admit, I pretty much ignore politics until it's time for me to vote. I love voting. It's like crack for me. But I feel voting w/out research is worse than not voting at all. So, I researched in the primaries and decided Obama was my man even though I came in wanting Hillary. Now, I'm looking into this Palin chick.....what the hell!? Are you serious? Is SHE serious? She's like Bush w/ tits....but dumber! How do people like this exist? You'd think Darwinism would have kicked in and taken her out by now.

I looked up some of the stuff she's been doing up there in Alaska and it's horrifying. Debt everywhere she goes. She's against nearly every human rights act awarded to women/minorities in the past 50 years (That's an exaggeration, BUT I'M SOOOO HEATED). She never answers a question. And she has that blank glossy look in her eyes just like Bush. She scares the shit out of me. And I realize that as VP, she's not going to have too much of direct impact. However, just to know that McCain chose her irritates the hell out of me. He's trying to get the female vote. I understand that. But damn it, don't give us the anti christ just because it's got a vagina! Ok. I take that back. She may not be the anti christ. However, I have no proof that she isn't.....

In conclusion!!!!! Sara Palin is SCARY! McCain's ethics are now questionable to me for choosing her. I was just going to shut my mouth and vote democratic anyway, but now I feel as though I must convert all of my republican friends. It'll be a rough battle, but I'm up for the challenge. Our country really can't take another 4 years of whatever is clicking behind thoes glossed out eyes.
 

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:D

Softball is OFFICIALLY OVER! I miss it.....

The league had our closing party/awards ceremony. Good fun. We went to a gay men's strip club. Can I just say that was epic? Some of those boys are very talented.....

My team voted me most spirited! :D Really didn't see it coming. I'm very happy and honored that they voted for me. I don't know where I'm going to display the trophy in my dorm room, but I'm still very excited. Right now, it's sitting on the floor in front of my TV. Sort of the focal point of the room. I want EVERYONE to see it and ask, "what's that?" so I can recant the events of the night.

YAY!!!
 

LOL

Called it from day ONE!!!

I AM A CHAMPION!!!! Blue Moon video won the Division D championship this past Sunday. 3 games in a row of VICTOY!!! Mercied all the teams too! That's the way WE ROLL!!! WOOOOOOOO!!!

There was a bit of drama. 2 of our players got injured. The one I'm most concerned about is my buddy Critter. He pulled his quad and he's supposed to play w/ me next week in Ohio for this tournament we signed up for (we REALLY signed up for the parties....but don't tell my coach! Oh snaps....I think I did when I was loaded @ the bar......). Then, the team we played in the finals was not the team we should have played. The Horny Doc's were playing Between The Lines in the semi finals to see who would face the all mighty Blue Moon. Well, the Horny Doc's KICKED ASS!!! The last team in the division came up from 9 runs behind to win the game!!! It was AWESOME!!! I was geeked to play em. They seemed like they really came to play! But then, Between The Lines pulled a gay moves....they called Horny Doc's on a disqualifying technicality. Apparently, the Doc's didn't have 2 people registered on their roster. But, they'd been playing all day. No one brought it up. I know my team didn't when we played them that morning. But, after they lost, Between The Lines brings it up. Oh so lame. We took them down in the 3rd inning. 20-2. That's for you Doc's!!! You all really came a long way this season.

AFTER PARTY AT THE SPONSER BAR!!!

Sponser bar was a male strip club. Super hillarious. The food was on the stripper stage by the pole. Didn't realize that until AFTER I ate all the food.......Got hammered. My teammate and her wife had to drive me back to my dorm. I feel like shit now, but I was JAMMIN at Kareoke!

EDIT....and more stuff I just remembered...
The boys on my team told me the chicks on my team think I'm HOT. Said I had a bangin body. What an ego booster!! AND on my way out of the bathroom (totally checkin out my bangin body) I slipped on a can of spaghettio's and fell into my wardrobe. Initial thoughts. "What the fuck!!! Who put a can of spaghettio's in my doorway!?" Then I rememberd. I won a week supply at the bar. I guess when i got to my dorm, I just threw them on the floor. HAHA!!!

Ooo! I just found $16 in my sports bra!!! This day is GREAT!!!
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So, I'm working the desk after a long day of RA training. And for those who have no idea what that's like, I've been getting lectured on things I already know for the past 10 hours. Yay....So understand that I am very tired and frustrated with life. Anyway, this old Nigerian man comes into my lobby and is asking to speak to his son. Well, our policy is not to allow anyone up without a resident, so I can't let him up. Well, he asks me to call him. The phones in the rooms aren't turned on in the summer, so I can't do that either. Then the old man starts yelling at me. In this strange broken english. What I could mangage was, "Look in the book.....I've done this before.....You can't do your job....." I'm like, WTF?! Call your son your damn self you son of a bitch! Don't come on my job yelling at me! Did I mention I'm not supposed to be working this week? RA training is from 7am until 10pm unless they let us out early. Well, I work 7-9am every weekday. So I have to find someone to work my very undesirable shift. I was in the middle of this process when this man starts yelling at me.
Well, one of the football players (that's who's living in the building right now) comes down and the man starts talking to him. In a very polite manner that I was never given. So, he goes up and gets the kid. The boy comes down and the guy is all smiles. Other guys pass through the lobby, he's all smiles. Then I realize what's going on here. He's one of thoes women hating bastards I can't stand. Damn foreigners. I don't mean that. I love foreigners. My ex was Nigerian. I think they're sexy. But his dad was like that. A pure ass. Grr....
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Updates

My softball team lost its second game of the season. *sigh* It wasn't even a good game. We let ourselves get beat by the #2 team a division up. How lame. How dare we suck that bad. I busted myself up trying to win too. Slid without socks. My right leg (the one that's not swollen) is all cut up. But no one can say I didn't put my blood and sweat into that game! It's cool though. We're tied now for the best record in the league. And we're not going to lose another game anytime soon.

I GOT MY PROMOTION! I'm no longer an intern! I'm now a full time videographer/editor for Platinum Mix Productions! I edited my video in 9 (THAT'S RIGHT, COUNT 'EM 9) of the 10 hours I was given. And I got the DJ gig. Good things are happening. Or, I'm getting in over my head again and it's all going to blow up in my face. But I'm not afraid because stuff blows up in my face all the time. I'll take it a day at a time.

*WOOT!!! GO PAY RAISE* $5 says I'm still not going to have any money.....
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